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Australia Day - Australian's are FUCKHEADS
17:31 Jan 26 2006
Times Read: 555

I haven't been to an Australia Day since probably 1999. and all I can say is:





"Australians" do not deserve the right to call themselves Australians. Not in the way that promotes the reputation that the Veterans died for. I am horrified at what I have seen. Simply disgusted in every Australian, including myself.



How dare people, declaring they "suppport Australia", go to an area full of families, couples - young and old, singles and groups there for respect, plan to have brawls with certain people, to drink until they are so angry and filled with rage that they fight anything that moves?



I saw this tonight :



JAv was beaten up by three aboriginal girls. Three on One. No one came to her help. Not even when she came close to passing out on the grass for a serious concussion. My boyfriend and I ( the latest boyfriend ) hefted her with blackouts and deadweight to the hospital to keep her alive ( an exaggeration ) but to make sure she was ok.



A girl was headbutted by her boyfriend because he was drunk, broke her nose cleanly, it had been straight but will now require her to have corrective surgery to fix the shattered bones.



A random guy was bricked in the back fo the head, passed out. Stitches needed. Was happy because last year it was a cricket bat. And to Quote "I come because of the fights. Australia Day is all about fighting".



------ My disgust in humans, in their morals and their mindset makes me loath them more.





----



Vixen

Proof
13:29 Jan 21 2006
Times Read: 564

Now I have proof of what I have been saving about my physical friends.... Context included!



i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

hey baby

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

Hello

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

how is my baby

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

she still is my baby isnt she'

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

I am single yes, but I can be if you want it.

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

well yes i want u and no else can have u

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

mine mine mine all mine

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

...

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

You are SO obsessed with me.

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

arent i allowed to be

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

I have no clue but it makes me wonder Why? With what?

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

fine then i wont be ok

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:



Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

I'm confused...

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

so am i

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

So sue me for being alittle cold.. I have goo reason.

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

realli

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

Yes

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

and y is that

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

It's called other males being pricks, females being jealous and friends being cunts

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

is that all

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

thats everyday life

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

Maybe I take it more personally than you do

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

sorry then

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

it' fine

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

u sure

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

I don't expect anyone to understand much of anything I do or feel

Mistress Vixen - Guys have feelings too.. But like.... Who cares? - Bumper stickers for Women says:

Yah, I'm sure

i am wateva u say i am and if i wasn't then y would i say i am in the paper the news everyday i am the radio wont even play jam says:

kool





Deny it.

A Brilliant Quote
22:03 Jan 20 2006
Times Read: 565

This comes from an somewhat moronic worker-mate.



" Who the fuck goes sees their ex on break?!"



It's true... So true.

I called my ex, having recharged my now defunct phone, and we had a somewhat decent conversation.



I say somewhat decent, by the fact he was fucked off his feet, I was getting there and neither of us, once we'd met really wanted to be there.



I won't be doing that again.

It didn't hurt, but I hate doing it. I won't do it again. I just know he hates me, for what he perceives now. I called him out for it... And He denied thinking it. Now.. This is where empathy, that great little ability comes in. You get glimpses into the way they feel, the ways they think.



I wasn't far off when I said "And you would have told me 'Fuck off Slut.. I hate you..' " No. I wasn't far off at all, but he's always been quick on the uptake, so in public covered his tracks well... But I wouldn't say it if I didn't know it.



So Alan.... Even as you don't read this.

I knew. And, you lied to me about thinking it. *thumbs up* Great Mates, arent we? You can't stand me, I don't want to be near you but we still carry thsi charade like it's a game. Some perverse form of a friendship.



It won't work, we both know it. But we continue.

I'm saying now. It stops here. No more.

Kill The Manager
21:54 Jan 20 2006
Times Read: 566

The One good thing about tomorrow.



No possible way I can get into work on time.

No trains. No buses. Nothing before 10/10:30am.

So my shift tomorrow won't be done. They may switch me with someone else, or just tell me not to come in. I'm hoping, after waking up at 5:35, freaking out like a motherfucker, for the latter.



I catch the bus at 6:35am.

I can't even see straight after 18 hours anymore, let alone actually see straight just when I wake up, read the the time correctly and be ready on time. It just doesn't work. But, Im up, in half an hour I go to work, via the right path.



I get into the port roughly 8:22... Then fuck around in the cold for about half an hour to 40 mins before work begins.... I'm loving it.



Kill The Manager

I am Self-Centred.... Proclaimed the Human
15:56 Jan 19 2006
Times Read: 576






Think about it.

If we could, we'd make the world, the Sun and universe revolve around our bodies... Literally. And I know that is impossibly insane... So. Artists are right. Humans are just fucked up DNA evolutions with no real stance in life.







I am a Bitch.

I am not a slut, I'm am The Slut and I am my Daddy's slut.

I'm Done
15:45 Jan 19 2006
Times Read: 578




I have coem to the most brilliant deduction ever. People, no matter how "selfless" they appear, are just as self-centred as the rest who openly parade it. You're all out to get something for yourself, to prove yourself in some way that I really just don't want to think about, don't really care about and don't see a point in.



If you have something interesting by my standards, I'll do your the courtsey by hearing you out. Notice the difference. Hearing you, is you talking *at* me. Listening is me participating. Good luck with the last one... Otherwise... No. I won't listen, I'll let you think I am and when you ask if I listened I can at laast say "I heard you... and all the bullshit you just proved wrong."



I'm over humans. They are nothing more than children. I'm over vamps too. For the most part, you are children too. You little sniveling "My Daddy's better" brats. So having strength, keen senses and apparently the self-cultivated aire of mystery gives you power. Big deal. Mock you and your Hut falls like some mislaid crap.



I'm part human. I live in flesh that's recognisabely in DNA human, I am not human by mind nor nature. I am vampiric. And yes, I've just contradicted myself. BUT... Unlike all the little shits that attach themselves to my side like some great leech, I'm able to laugh at myself, change and reverse the crap that's gone on.





My New year's resolutions ( It's still January ):



1. Do not tolerate bastards. You're all cunts and I do not like you. Piss off.



2. Don't tolerate people saying things. I think, now that my mind's not distracted, that I can tell these people I don't care.



3. Improve myself. I've slacked off here, and become those around me. So... I'm going to make myself look, act and feel like an actual Mistress of a respectable House.



4. No more vanilla relationships. If the relationship is sour. Get the fuck out. Make sure he can give as much, if not more, and is good at biting sensually.



5. My Master comes first. Fuck the boyfriend off. If eh can't stand my submissive side to another male, he can go jump.



6. My happiness, contentedness comes first. So all those who seek to make me upset. Can just go fuck off. I've had enough.

Cutting
18:42 Jan 17 2006
Times Read: 582

As to that "I can cut now".... No.

I did not. I went for a long walk instead and listened to a few tracks that would pick up my mentality from where it was.



I am quite proud since the urge has been taunting me for a while, and that would have been the most perfect excuse to ask for. But no. I did not.



As for Stabb, you're right it wasn't all that bad.

And Who knows, everything picks up after a while.

Finality
18:40 Jan 17 2006
Times Read: 583

I feel better.



It's funny but here's the pattern emerging.

I am dumped, I am usually unemployed. And I get a job afterwards. Within days... O.o



I now work at Hungry Jacks in Freo. As of today. Now, before this, I would never have gotten a job. It seems being single allows one to actually have some sort of life.



Also, I have had offers to kick Havock's balls in. I turned around and merely said "No". I don't wish him ill-harm nor anything like that. Personally, if I never do 'catch up' with him, I'll be happier for it.



Friendship or not, I know at least he will talk. I refuse to. I will not lower myself to that state nor will I allow myself to be belittled by another who thinks that it would be an interesting event for that to happen. If any rumors start again.. like last time. I'm sure his guardian will stand aside while I beat the shit out of him. She I would hope to think would understand.



If not, It's not like I haven't taken out a guardian before to get at the one I want to hurt. I will only react if anything detrimental is said though.



If I would have to, I will expel him forceably and deal with the House alone. No Master Warriors, no attachments. Nothing. I will be the sole Mistress and these upstarts, as I anticipate them, will not destroy what I have started.



Revenge is sweeter when you do nothing to cause it. Is it not?

Can't Breathe
08:28 Jan 16 2006
Times Read: 585






Does anyone know what it feels like to lose someone you love? To know they think you're a liar? A cheat? A slut? A whore? Now I do too, I've joined you.



I will learn from this though.

I will and I will do it the hard way.



I knew something was up yesterday. I knew it when he didn't give me a hug, didn't get up, wasn't paying attention. It took him until today for him to bloody do it.



But, I'm numb, I'm cold.. So. Its ok. I can cut now. I don't owe him any favours, I don't owe him shit. I don't owe Daddy either. I'm alone, for the first time in a long time. Tehy never end well. Or correctly.. I am a horrible person aparently.

Personal Rejection of said Bodily parts
03:41 Jan 14 2006
Times Read: 587

One can always whisper in my ear

About every little thing that goes wrong

About every little situation that is not quite right

The girlfriend who left you, the uncle an alcoholic

Your mother's a bitch, your father's abusing you

Your pet dog hates you, your cd's are scratched

Your brother nearly killed you, your sister is a slut.



None of this I haven't heard somewhere

I will forever hear it again and again

I do not lament, I do not wish for death

I am beyond this now, with so much to go

So little to do and to see with anyone but you

You show me the real meaning of Death

Emotionally, yo have slaughtered me in the millions

Physically I have hit back and you cry crime



I can't hate you.I'm tired of hating you.

So I gave up. There are no cuts for they are inside

Drowning slowly in my own visceral, my own fluids

My hands drop by my sides, I'm lost for once

Never could understand your inbred wishes

To drag up the past and show you with your blind eyes



I am not your mother, I am not your father

I am not your sister, I am not your brother

I am not your uncle, I am not your child

I am not your friend, I am not your support

I am nothing to you but a smear on an infested wall

I am that which you hate more than anything

I am that which stands here and refuses to die

Even though I am dead inside.... the Irony...

Walking Dead
02:14 Jan 14 2006
Times Read: 589

Suppose you were to die tonight?

What would you say?

(Do you believe in life after death?)



In the traitorious light,

I can feel my heart racing

as I run towards the light

that seems so far away

Wandering forever

in the darkest of shadows

Wondering if I will ever see you again



Wondering if I will ever see you again

I'll take your love take

I'll take your Hate

I'll take your desire

I'll the world when it turns unreal

I'll set it on fire



The walking dead

The walking dead



Taking in the dirt I can feel you getting closer steady my hands through the blistering pain Anxiously awaiting for the earth to reveal you

Wondering if I will ever see you again

Wondering if I will ever see you again



I'll take your love

Take your hate

I'll take your desire

I'll take your heart

I'll take your pain

I'll bring you to life





I'll bring you to life



The walking dead

The walking dead



(breakdown)

I will bring you to life



I'll take your love

I'll take your hate

I'll take your desire

I'll take the world when it turns unreal



The walking dead



I'll take your love

I'll take your Hate

I'll take your desire/

I'll take yourr heart

I'll take your pain



I'll bring you to life!









___

Vixen

Lying
02:04 Jan 14 2006
Times Read: 591

When it is not enough? When it is that they must say one thing, scream one thing and demand a third? No one uite understands why that this should affect me so. I'm the strong one.



The dependable one. The Post that would never fail.



Sorry to say it people, I'm dying. I may even already be dead.It's nothing personal. You've just killed me. I'm broken. I can't do what you want anymore and you stab at a slave, a creature, an animal that has already been worked into the ground emotionally, physically I've still alive but emotionally. You don't ever understand, you won' ever understand.



I came back on the faith that you wanted me back. I knew it wasn't true the day I came back. I knew it was doomed but I subjected myself to it, maybe I hate you more than I think. Mabe I'm just dead to you now, and I've given up. Each of your words a blow me, my soul and myself.



Here is your heads up, your decision has been heard.. The cry is from everyone. I will go, I will disappear and never come back. Think I'm kidding, I'm not. Once I leave I will not come back. I don't want you near me ever again. I would have to break so many promises. Go back to what I was to complete my own endeavours, my wishes.



Hate? No. I loath you. Never touch me again, never look at me again and never speak to me ever again. I can't stand it anymore. The fire doesn't even exist.





I am not alone.

I'm just dead inside.



___

Vixen

Suicide
17:41 Jan 09 2006
Times Read: 592

I have come to claim that which is mine

The blade on the counter, shining

The alcohol in the cupboard, sickly sweet

And these little pills that will give me my escape

Every hope was sank when I saw

The messages come back to me

When you ignored me



I don't know how a heart could break

I swore to the depths of hell and back

that mine would never break again

But you succeeded, you won, and

Dealt me a blow that is incurable, I suffer

For your compassion, for your love

Of which I have and never will have ever

Now I bleed, like the rivers of the Delta

I will bleed this crimson lust from my veins

So I am nothing like you, you psuedowarrior



You fake, travesty to the vampiric world

I call thee out, you are nothing but a liar

An oath-breaker and even... dare I say

A rogue amongst those who truly love you

I hope for your sake, your life and soul

That you drop dead, and do so soon

I hate liars, pretenders, cheats and thieves

You lied about loving me, you pretended to care

You cheated with me on those you did love

And stole my heart, my life and love for sheer attitude and conquest



Thus, I hate you, and hate you still



I will never forgive you.

They don't exist
11:34 Jan 09 2006
Times Read: 594

Intelligent people and VR? Get fucked...



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heavyscene:

19:18:28 - Jan 09 2006

No, I'm just really tired. Normally i would be able to converse without hesitations. But right now, meh.



VixenDWT:

19:17:17 - Jan 09 2006

Ha. I may just keep my thoughts to myself then, forgive my show of observation.



SweetDeath:

19:16:57 - Jan 09 2006

Hello :)



heavyscene:

19:16:46 - Jan 09 2006

O_o



DanielsDarkFairy:

19:14:18 - Jan 09 2006

-_-



VixenDWT:

19:14:01 - Jan 09 2006

it is fairly interesting to find the ranks thin out as you go up rank.... hat would happen if a bunch of people decided to surge up the ranks as one?





DanielsDarkFairy:

19:13:58 - Jan 09 2006

*walks in the box half asleep*



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Heavyscene can be forgiven. For showing an interest, a reason and an excuse as to why not talking.



The rest, oberve. Look at the history, and you will see it is untouched...



All this bullshit is crap.



I am finding it incrediably hard to find informed, decent talking people who can manage a post behind three sentances that were blithely trung together in the hopes of making any sense.



Do the kind of people I am looking for exist?

Fuck no apparently.



Sometimes I see a shimmer of hope, some latern in the dark that fades. But I ill be damned if I will try to discuss the site, the background or the Ethicals of Vampyrism with absolute utter morons!



Should I get hatemail for my thoughts, then I have no problems. Though I expect and demand a well-written insult page or I will have no hesistation in ripping you all new literatural hole to which you may use for any service you deem fit.

Disappear
21:13 Jan 08 2006
Times Read: 597

Screams fading into the blackness

I've been awake for so long

Everything feels so unreal, so fake

For hours sitting down, finally snapping

My mind can't take it, I've lost it

Whatever it actually was I don't know

Selling An Image
15:25 Jan 04 2006
Times Read: 601

Something told me to Father

I could not lie to the likes of you

I gave it all up and then some

To see your kingdom come

To this, to You and all those

Who follow in your graceful wake



I came to see the city burn Father

To see what blood would run streets

To see these Bourgeios burn

And their cries echoe in my mind

Inside where I hold thee so near

Do I please you Father? In my works?



Maybe I do not, I will tear them asunder

And bring a new realm into being

With simply my mind and that within me

I will wallow in their hate and their loathing

I will stand above them and cleave

From them their heads and hold it aloft



I will revel while alive, in their agony

That they cannot be rid of me now

They have sown these seeds and I

Am the one they will reap and worship

For you see Father, I am their God?

Their one of pestilence and famine

Anger, Lust, Debauchery and Adultery?



Don't you yet see Father that I am now?

That I will carry my own words into being?

That little girl died for my pleasure and happiness

That little boy died for my knowledge and power

That woman died for my loathing and hatred

That man died for the sheer aspect of his masculinity?



I will hate them Father

I will destroy them all

I can and will and have done so

The body count grows Father

As Your kingdom comes to their present

While they languished in the fears of Judgement

I am almost giddy with pleasure

The feasting of the souls and blood

That is dribblign down my chin



Between oh so sharp teeth

And from the growling deep within me Father

That growing hunger you fed for so long

That I had to extinguishe with their lives

God, I'm feeling it now....





But never will I forget them tearing from me

My wings, My glory, My voice

My Love, My redemption, My Soul....

So Father, I hate your children

As you hate me....



We will see who will win, and be damned

If it won't be me at the end of it all.....

Forgive me Father for I have sinned
03:23 Jan 03 2006
Times Read: 603






Yes Father, on this day I sinned

And it's flesh-tempting passion

Broke this cold heart of mine deeply

Renting it from it's place in my chest

I sinned deeply, recklessly and love

Every second that I lay in its arms



Give me the strength to stand

Having screamed down the house

Give me the ability to think once

My body stops it's convultions of death



But Father, I hate them all

These Angel that float above me

On such perfect wings, and their

Holier than thou attitude!

Why, should it be so impossible

So impractical and against nature

To rip their ing asunder and bring them down?



Their bright eyes, their horrible

Sickely sweet innocent " I love you"s

and their all relenting fluffy bunny antics

It burns me Father, on my back

On my own tortured wings

On my own soul and it's devices

I hate them all, I despise them so



Father!

Listen! Watch! Hear!

For all of their loving compassion!

They are careless and soul-freed not!

They are cold, cruel and hurtful

I hate them so!

I hate them so!

I hate them so!

I hate them SO!





.......Oh mockery Father....

Let them twirl, let them bind themselves

I will play in your Darkness Father

I am happy here, where they cannot get me

And I do not want them to

hat evil creatures they are

These Evil Evil Angels..... Vile, cruel pests

Let me play with your orb Father

Show me how to bring their gates down

Destroy their cities and barricade them in

Until they turn upon the other in a frenzy

Eating and devouring each other alive



Let me Father, for I must Sin

Sin against these creatures of old

And kill them outright....





I hate them Father

I hate them

I hate them Father

I hate them

I HATE THEM SO!